A Dreary Start to December

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I spent the entirety of today watching back-to-back episodes of Doctor Who, never even bothering to shower or to change out of my pajamas. Because of where I am in the series and because I refuse to skip episodes or view them out of order, I had to re-watch "Blink" (a particularly amazing but creepy episode) by myself, which has resulted in a permanent tingling sensation in my lower back. (Yay! I am a scaredy-cat!) No amount of walking around, dancing, or stretching will make it go away. I will most certainly be filing this under "super annoying."

But even if I suddenly started growing an eleventh toe as a side-effect of watching this show, I don't think I would stop. Not now. As winter settles in with its grey and dreary days, I grow melancholy and start to remember the sad things I've hidden away. I remember that there is a hole in my heart left by my favorite friends, who are so far away. I remember that I'm alone. I remember that, while I'm unable to recall what it is I really want to do with life or even where I want to go next, I'm too paralyzed with fear to do it anyway.

Now half of that is a seasonal semi-depression making itself at home in my brain, but the other half is me waking up from a sunshine-induced coma of summery daydreams and autumnal fantasies to face an imperfect reality. (Yeah, this perfectionism stuff, it runs deep. Some lucky therapist is going to make a killing off me.) Anyway, this wasn't meant to wander into a "woe is me" type post. I'm just enjoying my time with the sad and lonely Doctor. Our mutual escape from the doldrums of everyday life will soon be over, but that's okay. I suppose I have to start looking at the marred face of reality eventually. I just hope that face offers me a cupcake and a spot of tea and maybe a back massage.

Thursday's Child

Thursday's Child

Are you me? In any event, you should embrace your decision to eschew perfection in order to accomplish more.

Life and reality are imperfect and marred, but it's what we've got, and we need to make the best of it.

gRegor

gRegor

Reality can be rough, but it does offer some pretty awesome things at times. One of the best things is we don't need to face it alone. I'm always down for cupcakes, tea, and back massages . . . ladies.

gRegor

gRegor

. . . and Mario Kart.

LovelyAnomaly

LovelyAnomaly

Girl. I have this thing parked out on a street right now. It's called a car. I'm no longer at the mercy of public transportation. Let's plan a weekend get-together!

Rachelskirts

Rachelskirts

IT'S A DATE.

Team Christmas

Team Christmas

Ah, the nostalgia of Christmas. The time to look back on all the things you are missing out on. Isn't it grand? (sarcasm btw) Just wanted to tell you that, even if you are physically alone, us guys down here (well, really only I'm left down here, but I'm sure this still applies to the rest anyway) still think of you now and then. And, in the spirit of the team, you are not the only one who misses the people we hung out with. But, there is hope! At least, now that you are updating regularly, we can keep tabs on you and vice versa. Its not as good as a spot of tea or a back massage, but it's a start.
And, congrats on making through NaBloPoMo with a little cheating :)
Always here to make the aloneness go away,
Team Christmas
PS tis the season for the team!

Rachelskirts

Rachelskirts

I love you, Team Christmas.

Brianne

Brianne

Blink *might* be my very favorite episode. I haven't seen season 5 yet though.

Rachelskirts

Rachelskirts

Stuff from "Blink" resurfaces in season five, which is why I saw it out of order in the first place. Everything about the episode and the follow-up material makes my spine tingle with fear, but I love it so much. As Facebook would say, "It's complicated."